I recently declared my love for a man in a romantic and heartfelt gesture - a poetic letter composed of everything that I know and feel. This letter was, “raw and real,” accordingly to the handful of close girl friends with whom I shared each word out loud. I put myself in the most vulnerable state that I have ever experienced all in the name of love. I exposed a piece of me few have had the privilege to see. I read this letter a thousand times before I sent it off to the man that had shifted my world. Most would assume (including myself) that this letter would be well received. However, it simply was not. Not only did I get rejected (I guess there’s a first time for everything), but he also had the audacity to not respond. My ego was begging me to confront this man but I decided to sit quietly and hear the whisper of my Soul. And my Soul provided me with the true meaning of this experience.
The love letter that so flawlessly rolled off my tongue to another was not meant for him. It was meant for me. I was the one that needed the declaration of pure, unconditional love. Yet the giver within pushed it outward instead of accepting it inward. Since I believe in second chances, here now is the love letter I have written to myself:
For years I ignored you and tried to act like you didn’t exist because it was too difficult for me to face you with honor. I didn’t want to see all that you were suffering through since that would have made the choices I was making too real. And while our relationship has flourished into a beautiful love affair, it doesn't mean that there isn’t room for growth. But first, let me acknowledge all that you truly are.
Your ability to see through the darkness to find the light in each living being is awe-inspiring. The strength you hold to see the best in others, especially those going through painful situations and acting out on you, never stopped you from loving with your entire heart. You have been supportive of so many people while fiercely putting your entire existence on the line. This is simply because you have suffered greatly in this life and understand that everything is temporary. At the end of the day all we need is love and this begins with the Self.
You have trusted your intuition to be the driving force behind all of your decisions and this has led you to create a life that is everything that you have ever wanted. The fear and worry that most people carry isn’t an obstacle for you because you truly believe in the power of love (with a splash of karma).
With every new twist and turn you make the conscious choice to see how you can change and grow in order to become the best version of yourself. This, my love, is powerful beyond words.
I want you to know that I am here for you. I promise to listen to your thoughts thoroughly even when they come in the middle of the night. I will acknowledge your sensitivity and allow you to cry when you feel sadness. I promise to tell you, “I love you,” and to understand your perspective in every which way everyday. When the world feels too heavy, I promise to blast music and encourage you to sing and dance to shift that energy. I will sit with you in silence and allow every breath to kiss your Soul. I will honor and love you. I am truly forever yours. And with all of this I will walk with you through this beautiful journey called life.
My love letter honors all that I am and all that I am going to be. One is not alone when one is with the Self. We must continue to forgive and grow so that we can build a community of empowered Souls attaining enlightenment.
Om. Shanti. Shanti. Om.